I just got a reply from him, 1355. Well, like I guess so. He's afraid of being hurt actually. Should I let go or should I be selfish and let him stay with me? I know myself, I guess I should have told him in the first place not to like me. Well, he said that in mind he will be thinking of treating me as friend and in heart he just can't let go. When I see this, first thing in my mind is actually to tell him let go and follow your mind. I guess I have to do so right?
I know he is simple, he needs a simple life, not a complicated girl like me. I don't know what to reply his xtremely long msg. I know I hurt him, I know he's sad, I know. But what should I do? Haha.. I have no idea. He says he will not regret meeting me but I regret letting him meeting me haha.. As if I know the consequences right? I don't know.
I'm tired, I have not been sleeping since a lot of things came into my mind. How much I love myself. How much I know myself. How is loving someone actually really like. Maybe I don't even know? I avoid the question of understanding myself. I guess no matter what I have to face the damn personalities of mine.
I think I shall make myself be the 'man' in this situation, I rather hurt myself than him. I guess things will change soon...
'Future is unpredictable. Whatever you expect doesn't mean it will be smooth sailing. The higher hope, the higher disappointment or even higher pain to get.'
'Live with the present, expect the future but don't put high hope into your expectation'.
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